Therapy

People have many ways of letting of stress or of re-directing their thoughts from bad things to happy things, and I've recently discovered all of mine. Most of the time I try to pretend that sitting around watching old TV shows on my computer is going to make a difference in my mood once I leave my room, but really all it does is make me want more TV when I'm not there. While it helps in the moment, it is neither satisfying nor long lasting.

Likewise, I've always known that music calms me if I'm playing the right songs, but that high, too, goes away as soon as the music stops. There is no real way to carry music in my head all the time without seeming rude or without dancing in places that dancing wouldn't be appropriate. And so music therapy because a night-time activity.

Recently, however, I've discovered how therapeutic it is to get something done with my hair. Whether it's a new cut or getting it dyed, a change in my hair is equal to a change in my attitude. I figured this out several months ago, and it's worked both times. Today I also found out how calming it is to have a gift card that I didn't pay for and to be able to go into a store and buy whatever I want with no fear of cost to myself.

So I'm going to be going back to school with a new haircut, my hair re-dyed, a new body pillow, makeup and headbands, some new shirts, and the big box of crayons. I don't feel completely better, but I feel like I have something to look forward to, and that's a start.

Why today was awesome: I'm finally going to see Tangled. It's a date with the best guy in my life, and one of the best girls.

My year in numbers:

How Many Books I've Read: 6

How Many Times I've Lost My Key: 7

How Many Bowls of Soup I've Consumed: 29