Color Me Surprised

Well, I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up failing out of college. It doesn't matter how much I study or how hard I try, I'm just a naturally bad test taker and most of college so far has been based on tests. I get A's on all my papers and I study the material for what it's worth, but I always end up with C-'s or D's on the midterms and exams. There's been a few exceptions, but for the most part, my grades are lower than they've been in my entire life. I wish grades could be based on final papers like they were in high school...

I wish I could just jump right into graduate school where they'd throw several papers at me and I could be free to analyze, think, and write, without having to really worry about too many tests in the middle. Tests make me nervous and when I get nervous my brain doesn't function correctly. I wish it did, but it doesn't. This is why big lecture classes are difficult for me. I can't concentrate and then they expect me to retain everything enough to be able to pass a test on it. Yeah, no.

I guess this is just an angry rant, but it's past 3 in the morning, I'm stressed, I'm confused, and more than anything I just want to give up and run to my mommy's lap where she'll tell me the age-old lie that I can do whatever I set my mind to and I can be anything.

Why today was awesome: I took a nap.

My year in numbers:

How Many Books I've Read: 5.5

How Many Times I've Lost My Key: 7

How Many Bowls of Soup I've Consumed: 23