But really, where does this leave me? It means that I have one quarter left in my freshman year of college, and thus one quarter left in the residence halls. I've realized today that with the leaving of the residence hall and the moving into my own house, I only have one break left to spend at home with my family. That's not to say that I won't be going home several times next year for weekends or for Christmas... things like that, but those will be of my own choice. Never am I going to be forced out of my home over a holiday break again and never again will I have to spend time alone and surrounded by the droning silence that is Baker West's 3rd floor A wing.
While I'm going to be making a new family- my housemates Alex, Adam, Matt, Josh, Phil, Amanda, and Christian- I'm going to be leaving one behind, too. My little brother is turning eleven in a month and a half, and since I left in the fall, he's already grown about four or five inches and is getting little zits on his nose that I never would have expected. He has completely started growing up, and I'm missing it. I realized that in choosing to come to a college that was a few hours from home that I would be losing some of the finer moments with him, but I didn't think it would bother me this much. My biggest fear is that in five years when he's in high school and his friends ask him about his siblings that he doesn't say, "Oh, I have a sister, but she's way older than me, and I never see her. We're not very close." That would break my heart.
So as thrilled as I am to be sharing a loft with girls as wonderful as Amanda and Alex and sharing a living space with Matt, one of my best friends in the entire world, I'm also slightly skeptical about leaving my brother, my dog, my guinea pig, my parents, and my grandparents in my wake. They know I love them and that I think about them all the time, but is that enough?
On a side note, I really want to start reading again, and I want to download a few books to my Kindle. I'm currently re-reading The Hunger Games, and I want to start re-reading Harry Potter before this summer, too, but that leaves room open in my schedule for a few new books. If any of you reading this no matter what website you're being directed from would like to give me a book suggestion, please leave a comment or send me a message in various locations to make me look for them. You know where to find me. ;)
Why today was awesome: GLEE. SO MANY EMOTIONS.
My year in numbers:
How Many Books I've Read: 5.5
How Many Times I've Lost My Key: 7
How Many Bowls of Soup I've Consumed: 16
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