I had no idea what he was talking about because the last time I'd seen him was in December, and we were at a Christmas party and we small talked and goofed around and made weird jokes out of each other just like we've been doing for years. I didn't see anything that he would have had to apologize for. But then what he said made my jaw drop: "Three years ago I was blind and I broke your heart."
If I had expected him to say anything like that, it would have been three years ago, and even then it would have shocked me. But to hear him say it now, after all this time has passed with us being on good terms with each other was completely mind-blowing. I had no idea what brought it on, but before I could even really ask, he told me that he found the letter I wrote him after we broke up.
Right. Of course I wrote him a letter. That's kinda my signature thing to do. I write guys letters because I'm awkward when I try to talk about emotional things out loud. Why would he have been any different? But why would he have kept it? Regardless, he found this letter and he read it and felt horrible about how he ended things and how he broke my heart, even though we were 16 and silly.
It was just the sort of gesture that lifted my good day to a great one and made me realize that people change and that all of my friends are growing up and becoming different people than the ones I remember, but beautiful ones all the same. He made me realize that there is still some hope for guys that I've had to let go, and it makes me happy to know that they're all going to be just fine, and so will I. Things happen, but it's always for the best, but that doesn't mean you can't step into your past for a few seconds and right some wrongs that happened all that time ago.
He didn't have to message me today, and I'm sure he debated for awhile whether he even should or not. But I'm glad he did. He really taught me something today, and I feel very fortunate to have had him and so many of the other people who have come in and out of my life. No matter how long it's been since something has come to pass, there's always a chance to fix it.
Why today was awesome: Cane's chicken. Oh, and I found out that I'm totally in the height range to be a Disney princess after all!!!! :D
My year in numbers:
How Many Books I've Read: 5.5
How Many Times I've Lost My Key: 7
How Many Bowls of Soup I've Consumed: 15
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